they say holidays r the loneliest times of the year... i dont think ive ever been lonelier in the holiday season than any other normal day of the year. its just a steady loneliness... i work almost every holiday neways. i remember last xmas i worked xmas eve for eight and a half hours then i worked xmas morning for 12. i dont like any holidays. my birthday is just as important to me as election day is to an infant.

did u ever think about if ur gonna be one of those lucky people that marries right when u get outta college and have a long lasting marriage? or maybe be the lonely guy sittin in a bar at the ripe age of 42 and still have never married or had kids and lives around work, getting the occasional date once or twice a year?
right now my future is looking pretty bleak so im prob gonna be number 2. sad how im 18 and already know wat the future holds for me.

i have some kind of attraction to a girl and i dont know y. shes like all the other girls yet shes unique. shes sweet, attractive, witty, all these nice things but i struggle with wat to say with her. most of the time she talks to me before i talk to her and i just smile. she could make the closing of the year better for me... but ill just have to leave it where it lies... dormant